I needed you And you weren’t there. Why? Where were you? Am I not important enough? Do the drugs really come first? I always told myself I would never [Not once] Put myself in situations Similar to this one. Yet here I am. Stuck in a battle I know I’ll lose. I’ve never been Important enough. I’ve never been First. There was always Something else. School. Work. You name it. It was before me. I was always offered The dim hope “After I’m done with—” School or work [Take your pick] “You’ll be number one In my life.” But when will I be Number one From the beginning?