I needed you
And you weren’t there.
Why?
Where were you?
Am I not important enough?
Do the drugs really come first?
I always told myself
I would never
[Not once]
Put myself in situations
Similar to this one.
Yet here I am.
Stuck in a battle I know
I’ll lose.
I’ve never been
Important enough.
I’ve never been
First.
There was always
Something else.
School.
Work.
You name it.
It was before me.
I was always offered
The dim hope
“After I’m done with—”
School or work
[Take your pick]
“You’ll be number one
In my life.”
But when will I be
Number one
From the beginning?