Sometimes I sit around wondering.
Wondering where the time went.
It feels like just yesterday I was a little kid wishing to be older.
Today I'm older and regretting ever wishing those things.
I miss waking up each morning loving going to school and loving who I was.
Today I'm sitting here crying about everything. Sometimes I don't even know what I'm crying about.
I just feel sad.
I never used to be sad. I never used to feel this way.
If I went back my younger self would be so disappointed.
They would be mad, angry.
I would yell at me and ask why I've done what I've done.
And to be honest I would yell back.
Because when you're a kid the world is such a great place but as you grow up the fairy tales stop and things start to really ****
And sometimes you do things to cope with the world.
Because you can't change it. You can't make the change you want to see because everything that we hope for or wish for is nothing but a dream.
A dream that no longer lives. A dream that I personally, don't dream about any more.
Because I've lost all hope.