I'm haunted
Pushed into a corner I followed a path my soul never supported.
I walked away too quickly to notice the damage
Hid from the pain, I fled from my hurt
Continuing with life like it never happened
Pretending like it was never there
But oh my soul is haunted
My womb feels the emptyness
Missing the seed I plucked out unripe
Missing the child I gave up on
Now I howl in an unladylike manner in secret
I could have done better
Oh I mourn for the child I never got to hold.
I mourn from the fruit I threw away
Begging the Almighty to return my child but I know it's futile
How shallow I've become, that I stooped so low
I mourn for the child I never got to name
I'm haunted by my choice
I'm haunted by my loss
The pain reverberates in my veins
I mourn in silence for I acted in private
With no one to hold and lean on
Bit by bit my soul sinks
Oh Mama I'm haunted