Because every time, every single time, I have to stop myself from seeing the world through my pool of tears. It is as if I have to watch you grow from afar. And I do, I see you grow - without me.
I have so many dimensions in me, and yet none that I could release to find you again. It is as if I have lost you, and that you have left, but you have never gone. Not once have I not thought about reliving every particle of you.
Every time. Every single time. I see you grow - apart and away.