We joked that I was mostly blind, no color I could see. You’d point and ask, you grabbed the thread, what shapes could we both be? You rubbed these thighs with your green eyes And asked what does that mean? It means the slate was not a lie, your blue’s my blue obscene. I wanted something else instead, perhaps to raise our dead
or maybe even turn for you damnation on its head. The secret held that I was wrong when I was sure I’d be. I wanted something else instead, released from you or me.
But I remember seeing you, the lambent yellow shirt reflected in the light, you stretched beneath the cupboard, hands were out of sight. I saw your face exasperated, inundated, out of place. You looked at me with love or hurt, your gaze was our embrace.
I snapped the pic, I got a kick, from you and out of it. And even still that look could **** the parts I won’t admit. Too selfish to love anyone, anything, even me. I wanted something else instead. Freedom is never free.