when i am gone i will miss the body, its aching and its cramps shoulder blade clicking warm fat resting on my hipbones, smoothing out over my thighs. i will miss this, the struggle of a breath, the sound of walking, organs desperately fighting for life.
when i am gone i will miss the smell of the morning, of the rain, the feel of page against palm, fingers dancing delicately over ink. i will miss hugging, pressing bodies close to remind bones of what it is to be together, to be born again.
when i am gone i will miss the feel of cool glass and metal against my skin my eyes will yearn for the sight it used to take so easily to see the storm clouds roll in from the horizon and the lights flicker on in the dusk-dim apartment complex.
when i am gone i will miss singing, offkey notes on green stricken afternoons and shimmery dusty dawn-lit moon nights: voices are born to make art, make music, make noise, i will miss holding my mothers hand, rough and cool, speckled brown with years of loving me, will miss when my dna did not forget what it is to be loyal to itself