Dear Mother,
When you gave birth to me you held me so tight,
And I was your light bundled in grey and blue.
So what happened to you, did you not love me anymore?
When you let the evil in, let him shake me to my core?
At the tender age of four, you knitted dreadlocks to my head
And read me stories in my bed, and said
That daddy loves us still. And Daddy was always out to ****.
And it's something I still feel
when I let men **** me 'til I'm ill.
Dear mother, what happened to you?  You beautiful angel wrapped in robes
With henna, bangles, flats, and globes...
Hanging from your ear
mother dear?
I have your wedding pictures around
And the screaming still resounds resounds resounds resounds the sound
Of you getting hit, it never left me, not one bit.
Sixteen, I was a truant, I was your friend, your therapist.
At 18, I loved you so much I hid the train tracks on my wrist
And never passed a test,  you still said I was the best but I never ever got my rest
Because the pounding in my chest because the pounding on the door, because you crying on the floor because your partner to this day destroyed my faith and so much more.
Dear mother who are you, thou that thinks in whiskey dreams who drinks and drinks and drinks to break my love stitched in your seams?
Oh mother dear you almost killed me
Why would you **** the one you love?
You could have killed my brother, love.
And  I am running out of love.
And it hurts how much I love your pretty face in every place
in every storefront where we wandered

drunk and happy

(Your ****** dreadlocks black and *****)

When I begged for a better life, Michele,
You couldn't bear it, called me snappy.
You didn't care for it , not at all, I was never invincible, you saw me fall
And didn't take it as any reason to commit to thriving and end your treason
And now I'm surviving on cigarettes and decrepit *** and loving you.
Mommy dear, what happened to us what happened to me what happened to you?