I have seen you once in 365 days.
we rarely speak,
but I would be lying if I said I haven't thought of you.
or gone back three years and set up camp in my mind.
retracing our very being
I can hear us laughing,
see us crying.
I can feel those nights spent in silence
just me crying.
the frustration, anger
helpless, anxiety
because of how much you meant to me
but not I to you.
did I ever?
I don't think I will ever know.
and for how it all changed
too quickly for me to grab hold.
I spiraled
down.
and I hit hard.
but I still see your smile
and I still feel mine.
and if we never meet again
just know that I may not ever love you
but I always will.