When I say I don’t want to be alone
It might have to do with wanting to share experiences with someone else
Baring my soul to another
It’s not just me being flaky
It’s more than the fear of the dark
The fear of what’s in it
It’s more than wanting a hand to hold
Because shouldn’t that be okay
A hand to hold makes you stronger
Someone to experience the dark with you
Makes things seem less dark
Don’t you know it’s okay
To let go of the idealized view of yourself
You don’t have to stand alone and do it all yourself
Independent yes
But don’t let yourself become so independent
That you forget what daylight looks like
That you think the light is the dark
And the sharpened sword pointed at your throat
Should mean that others should **** it up to
Just because you had to **** it up
Doesn’t mean others need to flounder
Let your soul be bare with no protection
Realize there is light
In the darkest forest
Light still tries to cut through
Cut you to the core
See what your made of
Are you bitter from past regrets
Why are you still letting them affect you
If they are in the past
Then why are you still holding on
If you’ve been trying the same thing over and over
Why haven’t you started afresh
And started something new
You are clinging to a rock on the shore
The waves keep battering you against the rock
Why won’t you open your eyes
And look to the left
And see safety
If you wear rejection as a shawl
Each look down the street
A reflection of how much hate you pour onto yourself
Don’t you realize you are scalding yourself with tea
You keep pouring it
Because the pain is too much to stop
Do you keep making yourself seem smaller
And acting smaller
And hoping no one will see you and yet hoping someone will see you
And yet you have this mask on that no one can see through because what is more painful than admitting it
How is anyone going to know you are suffering if you don’t let anyone know
People are often more concerned with themselves
They don’t often look your way
When they do they often don’t see the pain you have on the inside
If your face tells otherwise
Often if they knew you were begging for someone to care
They’d be willing to help
But be careful with your heart all the same,
Don’t give it to those who don’t deserve it
Even if you are tired of waiting
If everyday drags on
And you feel like know one will love you
And you feel like you deserve to be loved
And trust me you are worthy
But not just anyone is going to cut it
You may feel all over the place and feel like you are falling for anyone who comes your way
It’s hard
But not everyone can handle
All that you are
Not everyone can appreciate what makes you you
And just as you shouldn’t try to hide or saw off your hard edges to fit someone’s view of you
Don’t step all over someone
Like someone else has stepped all over you
It’s hard being alone in the dark
Remember that the next time you have an option to hold someone’s hand
-HC