I have been waiting oh so long
I'm just beginning to feel this pain  
that keeps carrying on
for what is true
and for what is wrong
I'm just beginning to give
what I've been protecting
I'm just beginning to Love and live
and learning how to forgive
before I leave
I must say thank you for the pain
you had given me all these years
bring on the fears and tears
I have learned so much from you
that kept me so confused
leaving me feeling so used
and abused...
The pain of love
you made about us
your madness
gave me a life of sadness
  You hurt me so bad
just the thought of you cuts me deep
leaving me always
weeping in my sleep
Before the light of the dawn
will always carry on
before this evening comes to a close
you bring me more sins.
I have been waiting for this nightmare
to come to its end.
- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery