Can't I be clean? Is it okay to try and scrub away the failure from my tongue and the disappointment from my heart?
Would it be possible to look in the mirror and be okay with it? I want to be happy with the reflection but all I want is to cover it in fog with the hopes that there will be someone different when I wipe it clean.
I want to be someone you deserve. I don't want the hate, the jealousy, the fear that this is all I'll ever be. I want to say sorry for being *****. Tainted. Hideous. Sad.