if i convince myself that being with you will make me happy,
will that make me happy?
if i trick myself into feeling good
will i end up feeling good?
if i smile and lie to myself that i'm doing fine
will i start being fine?

because "this is good for me", I say
and my litany becomes my reality
and my new neuroses become nevermore
because this is good for me

if i drown myself in loneliness
will that it make me lonely
if i plague myself with inadequacy
will that it make me inadequate
if i flay myself with hatred
will that it make me hated

because "this is good for me", I say
as the carrot is replaced with stick
and my nevermore neuroses begin anew
because this is good for me