I’ve gotten myself deep in this one, haven’t I

I jumped head first into a hole, hoping there was refreshing water at the bottom

and you there, calling me in

a warm oasis to congratulate our risk

only to find

a broken neck

that is to say,

my bones are cracked

my heart is raw

there’s nothing left

i'm flattened on the floor

and now i’ve become somewhat of an observer of my own demise

I say this because I was the cause

I was the reason this all happened

the trigger

the bullet

and the gun

and you were,

the target

the victim

the one

at least, I thought you were

who’s to say anymore

not I

I mean, the whole reason i’m in this hole

is because i’m guilty

the reason why I wait

is because i’m guilty

i took a shot

you took the fall

I came after you

risked it all

but i should have known after the first time because,

you got up again,

and you limped away,

now i’m laying here

wondering why I didn’t do the same