I feel really angry and stupid.. It's aching that you became my regret. Up till now, I still wonder what exactly you were afraid of, for real, cause it definitely wasn't commitment. I never thought uncertainty would be this painful but that's little compared to what you felt about my communication and trust issues and I'm really sorry about that, I really am.
I really have a lot to say, so much and I'm going to because there's no other person to say it to than you and I don't want to keep harboring my pain just to feed my ego.