I told you I would never give up
I never did give up.


I love you just as much as i did 2160 days ago.
But you gave up on me,
on us.
You shunned away your feelings
and now you don't feel it anymore.

You don't feel anything anymore.


I can't blame you.


Love is a beautiful cluster-**** of emotions,
but at the end of the day
when your insomnia begins
darkness fills your somber heart
and you question love.


But I do love you.
More than you could ever possibly comprehend.

But, that doesn't matter
because my personality and clothing choice,
will never make up for hers.


I want to be what you want me to be,
but no matter how hard I try,
I Cannot be her.


There is no amount of pastel makeup,
and sparkly shirts,
that will make me her.


I could obtain her exact wardrobe,
and hair color,
and that dumb laugh she uses,
when she makes fun and jokes.


But, I could never be her, ever.


I somehow hurt you,
I never want to see you cry,
or in pain.


To this day I Cannot Believe that I somehow managed,
to hurt someone so perfect,
and so genuine,
and innocent.


I just want to show you that I never meant hurt you like that.


But you want me to be her,
and I'm sorry but that is the one thing I cannot do for You.