they do not fit into my hand or under my bed no the ghost of them looms over my house like a cloud i know the feel of them in the night they breath on me, fingers in my hair when the wind blows and each day they whisper my name and i don't know why they still make me sad they pull me under catching me in a riptide
but here pouring my tears into the ocean i can finally feel empty washing my wounds in the brine stings me with regret but the sea salt spray has taken their smell from me the wind drowns out their touch i rise from the foam, a new kind of Venus now the screaming gulls echo in my ears finally alone but i cannot stay here because the shine on the crest of the waves is the highlight on their blue eyes and the sand is too rough like their hands my lips chapped from the sea breeze
after years, now i no longer dream of them the scars have healed over with new skin their faces forgotten to me their shape i cannot trace by memory their names a song i no longer know not anymore
you ask me how i got over them i didn't get over it i just drowned it out until it was no longer able to drown me