At first the idea of it seems absurd
but as life goes on
it became more and more comforting

all started when the mother leave
the father became non existent for him
he started to withdraw from his relatives

everyday feels numb
it's hard to trust anyone
just when he thought it gets better
the lingering past strikes back

it's been ten years but they both doesn't change
it's annoying, he's tired from all of that
"what should i do?"

romantic love
when will he experience that?
will he ever?

his friends doesn't know
some even look up to him
he's well trained at hiding his feelings
or rather he does not know how and who he'll express it to

his sister might be the only hook for him
to not reset and leave all behind
for now....

day by day he ponders
wether or not he will make a last act
and jump into the comforting abyss.