I don’t want your hugs
I want you to sit in silence
So obediently
Out of sight but in my mind’s eye
Not out of pity
But down to your duty
All because I find your aura comforting
Not even the slightest bit distracting
Which helps bring me peace
No longer gasping for air, on my knees
Struggling to breathe
But it’s not enough
As I already know when you go
at the point when this is all over
I’ll realise this isn’t love
And this isn’t what I’d hoped for
But I’ll be man enough to admit
I’ve strung you along and taken you for granted
And without you I’d be climbing up the walls
But I need to fight my own battles
And convince myself to take some chances
At the cost of giving you up?
Well, time will tell
If the decisions I’ve made have been worth it
Or if the pain I’ve self-inflicted will be deserving