once again I'm drowning
in an ocean
of emotion
consumed by my thoughts my insides are exploding
so much pain and darkness
I gotta let go
so I'm writing this letter to
let you know
that mommy I still love you even though you didn't try
mommy I still love you even though that guy
touched me
he ruined me
destroyed my innocence
been holding on to so much and it just makes sense
that the darkness is what's
killing me
got me lacking the ability
to say
that I'm ok
but mommy I still love you though you didn't believe
the things he did
to your kid
mommy I forgive you for all
the welt's
from belt's
the pain and the neglect
look at your little defect
so imperfect
mommy I still love you even if
it doesn't show
and even though
you didn't help me grow
or know
where my daddy went
mommy I still love you despite all the abuse
and those words you use to use
the heated hanger
smacked with pots and pans
I'm in danger
mommy I still love you although I wasn't raised
but just so you know you ruined many days
you stripped me of my life
and now I look like
an ******* if I don't visit
I feel ashamed and I don't
wanna revisit
those four walls in that old room
where you called me a ****** and hit me with a broom
mommy I forgive you
mommy I still love you
but look what you did
you destroyed me sincerely
ur broken kid