It is hard to be quiet. It is hard to feel the parts that must be felt when wanting is louder. To want the heavy weight of your wanting, to want skin in the game, to want skin at all, to touch you, almost approaches a forbidden blessed thought.
Do I only want change? From you? Are you absence? From me? Absence by proxy? I only wish for you and your yawning wide gap to envelop me wholly, to feel breath on my nose, to put hands through thin hair, to exchange wry glances, to accept these changesβ
but I hang loneliness on you like rain-drenched clothes and expect you to smile. My loneliness is here with or without your gaze, it is mine to bear and love. It is the stolen ring never given, it is future unrealized, it is the part that is