i ******* hate this. i ******* hate wanting to go back. i know it's bad. i know i regret it. i know it's everything i don't want rn, and yet i still want to ******* go back. i don't wanna go back to giving ******* for money, i don't wanna go back to ******* people in the backseat for *******. i don't ******* want it. but i do. i need to go back because i need a reminder to that the **** away. i hate this, and i won't ever be able to leave