Dear soulmate of mine,
Everyday I dream about the days I'll spend with you
Each passing moment, I try to think of you
I wonder how you are doing in this world
If you're with someone who doesn't see your worth

I'm dying to meet you someday
I can't wait to wear this beautiful wedding dress
I can't wait to walk down the aisle in the arms of my father
I can't wait to see your tear stained face while waiting at the altar
I can't wait until I'm completely yours

I can't wait for our honeymoon where we make love beneath the moonlit sky
I can't wait to hear your soft breaths as you sleep beside me
I can't wait to wake up holding you close
I can't wait to kiss your lips and say "I love you" all the time
I can't wait until I get to bear your children

All these thoughts in my head make my heart flutter
But I can't stop thinking if I have met you already
If we've crossed paths before and I have let you go
I wonder if we've met and I've hurt you in the worst way possible
If I did, are you still willing to accept me?

I wonder if this fantasy is just something I make up in my mind
That all my anxiety comes rushing at the thought of you
I wanted so badly to be yours
What if I failed in this lifetime?
Will we cross paths again?

If you knew the demons I kept inside my head,
Will you still love me, then?
If you knew the pain I'm capable of giving,
Will you still want me, then?
Am I still worth it for you?

I'm scared to know if it's yes or no
I'm scared to know the truth and end up hurting myself again
I can't feel the same pain I felt the past few years of my life
It took me so long to be who I am today
Will you still want me?

Of course, you would and why should I worry?
You are the person who was meant to complete me
You are the missing piece in my messed up life
You were always meant to find me regardless of my past
You were created to be with someone like me

I'm just a messed up girl with little to offer
But I can promise you I can give you my heart
It may be broken and bruised because of all the mistakes I've made
But, I promise, my love, I tried to fix it for you
I tried to piece it together for you

I can't give you the world but I can promise to give you the real me
No filters, just my whole self
I promised to offer this to you
Including the beautiful vow I've written in my head for you
You are worth it for me

I am counting on the days until you're officially mine
Someday we'll get there in the perfect time
Sincerely, me