I’m on the boat again, rocking back and forth amid
the restless waves and torrential rains.
You were always wild, that’s nothing new.
I look out into the beautiful colors of the distant horizons,
like a rising sun-shined hope.
You were one I always looked forward to seeing,
no matter the occasion.
I’m called by a timid voice pulling me to my feet,
coming from a place far away.
You were always so welcoming, with a social gravity all of your own.
I step out onto the deck and the waves rise, then I lose my footing,
falling into the depths.
You were always so beautifully deep in so many of the best ways.
I’m drowning now, the water filling my lungs and carrying me slowly further from the boat.
Wait… I can’t breathe.
Although, I suppose you do have that effect on me.

I snap out of my daze to find you still sitting there,
a smile resting on your face.
Your smile pulls me out of my body every time.
I take another look at your eyes and decide I want to make them mine, pulling you in close.
Your body burns up my stars and directs my spirit’s flowing waters.
I tangle your golden tresses through my hand and realize my hand is living to its own.
You have a way of taking my will, and I don’t hesitate to surrender it.
I look to the clock hung upon my wall
and notice in its place a grey haze.
You feel like eternity in my arms, and I’ve never wanted it more.
I’m leaning in to kiss you, and my body refuses to breathe air,
taking in your life as my own.
Wait… I can’t breathe.
But I don’t really care.

How did I not see this before?
How did I miss this great desire?
To think, you were only my best friend.
Now you're my only.
I’m sorry it took me this long.
You’re patient, though.