Seeing you at first glance
Hearing your laugh
I’ve never felt this way
I thought it was normal
But it shouldn’t hurt this much
Taking this long to forget you is the hardest task I’ve ever had to do
I’ve had my chances but I guess the amount was limited
I should have shown that I cared
I should have embraced you
But I didn’t
I heard about your confusion and tears
I hurt you
The pain inside from the mistakes I made are unbearable
The reason I went to the other side of he world was selfish
I tried to forget you
Three months of crying and anger
You’re far from reach
But even if you were next to me
you’d be further than you were before
Even if you gave me another chance
I don’t think I’d deserve it
I crossed lines trying to forget what I could have had
Hurting others in the path should be unforgivable
People know I fear the word love
But if I were to truly say it
With real meaning
I’d say it
I’d say it to you
Only now can I realise what it means
Not nothing meaningless
But something that hurts for years knowing you can’t have it
Some thing that makes you laugh
Smile and dance
Something that gives you true happiness
I guess there’s not much else to say
Hopefully you find some one who appreciates you
Someone who doesn’t take more than one chance to realise it was meant to be more than just friendship
But also I hope you find someone who truly respects and appreciates you for the person you are
I don’t know when I’ll get over you
But words on paper seem like a great place to start trying