They say my effortless humor brings tears to the eyes and pain to the cheeks

They say my wit and wisdom is an advanced force well beyond my years

They say my eyes are deeply mesmerizing and my smile is infectious

I say I’m a clown with dark agony hiding under the paint

I say basic knowledge taunts me behind disguised doors

I say my body is absorbing destruction and I am to blame

Confused souls
Setting off conflicting sparks in my brain
They do not know why I am
I do not know who I am