I'm trying not to,
lately it feels like there's not much else.

I'm fighting the idea of it,
just in the hopes that something good comes later.

Reminding myself that,
you have to work for good things.

But also how tired I am,
something I feel in the core of me.

I don't want things to get worse,
but I can't seem to make them better.

I don't want this my whole life,
but I can't seem to escape the feeling.

I don't want to fight,
I just want to be closer.

Maybe I'm bad at everything,
and maybe believing that makes it true.

I'm trying not to,
Lately it just feels like there's not much else.