This is exhausting Its only May and I have Had enough I forget how it feels To not be tense There is always this Heaviness pressing down On my chest
I resent them And does that make me A terrible person For wanting them gone? For wanting to breathe Freely again? It feels like I am
Another night spent Hyperventilating in the bathroom Shower on so no one Hears me cry I just want scream, Run away But where will I go? What would it change?
I'm so tired Of feeling trapped In my own home I've never gotten used To these invaders Blood though they may be
I had a job for the first time It's gone now This situation is so precarious And feels like I Won't survive having It crash down