May 2013
Changing faster than we all sit to ponder about.
There's no stopping what all you take in and put together on your own, seeing what you believe, perceiving what happens and making your own feelings on what is, and picturing what a could be.
I feel I've saw almost everything. That I've grown a strong understanding for all that surrounds us, from the core to the dirt, I've visited heaven and hell.
Since my heaven left me, hells all I've been able to see, trying to swim in **** that over powers any smell no matter how close I think I get back each time to shore and believe im going to feel only sublime and see the ending ive wanted and always hoped for, no bad to be seen because it can't be where this beach lies. ready for me, filling me with relief, reminding me doubts are a waste of space, hate accomplishes nothing and only makes the **** more rancid and harder for you to handle.
I swear I've been through it all or feel as though I have because I'm running out of hurt, with no more love to give. I know I've felt what its like to be in heaven cause it was beautiful, true and I myself was never looking down, waking up ready to start the day problem is I lost the angel that made my sun gleam so bright and love me with his whole soul. We shared our souls and became one as soon as we opened up, cut out our innocence, gave it to each other. Its not even the *** that I'm aiming to explain. Just how I could feel the love, how real it all was and just how I imagined experiencing true love would be . Giving each other all of yourselves to one another and not feeling one bit of fear in doing so. Being secure and blind of how fragile it is to lose an angel and at the same time lose your strength of faith in all the pain that's over taking you when you just lost the half of you you gave out and also pieced together with another and there's nothing you can say or do once you can't feel your lovers love anymore and you know as soon as they've lost sight of what was and push you away or maybe he was just tired of hearing me say I'm done so many times before.
Just to let it be known I guess when I first ever mentioned to leave. Which now I'm sure it was only because of something petty that got to me and so when he realized that I was serious and couldn't believe or accept that I thought it'd be best to split apart. He ended up balling out the beach boys what if we were older song. And that's the sweetest,boy that's sailed this sea and tried out the tides first because gave me all of him, at one point, and the love was so real when he started to fade away was when other girls started coming his way and maybe even before that maybe when I started taking advantage of having power over his feelings and learning that I could get what I wanted if I threatened I'd leave. Just because I was selfish and wanted him solely to me, and when his attention went else where whether it be friends or other girls my confidence started to erode and cause me to lose hope. And only cause exactly what I never wanted to happen.
There's no stopping what all you take in and put together on your own, seeing what you believe, perceiving what happens and making your own feelings on what is, and picturing what a could be.
I feel I've saw almost everything. That I've grown a strong understanding for all that surrounds us, from the core to the dirt, I've visited heaven and hell.
Since my heaven left me, hells all I've been able to see, trying to swim in **** that over powers any smell no matter how close I think I get back each time to shore and believe im going to feel only sublime and see the ending ive wanted and always hoped for, no bad to be seen because it can't be where this beach lies. ready for me, filling me with relief, reminding me doubts are a waste of space, hate accomplishes nothing and only makes the **** more rancid and harder for you to handle.
I swear I've been through it all or feel as though I have because I'm running out of hurt, with no more love to give. I know I've felt what its like to be in heaven cause it was beautiful, true and I myself was never looking down, waking up ready to start the day problem is I lost the angel that made my sun gleam so bright and love me with his whole soul. We shared our souls and became one as soon as we opened up, cut out our innocence, gave it to each other. Its not even the *** that I'm aiming to explain. Just how I could feel the love, how real it all was and just how I imagined experiencing true love would be . Giving each other all of yourselves to one another and not feeling one bit of fear in doing so. Being secure and blind of how fragile it is to lose an angel and at the same time lose your strength of faith in all the pain that's over taking you when you just lost the half of you you gave out and also pieced together with another and there's nothing you can say or do once you can't feel your lovers love anymore and you know as soon as they've lost sight of what was and push you away or maybe he was just tired of hearing me say I'm done so many times before.
Just to let it be known I guess when I first ever mentioned to leave. Which now I'm sure it was only because of something petty that got to me and so when he realized that I was serious and couldn't believe or accept that I thought it'd be best to split apart. He ended up balling out the beach boys what if we were older song. And that's the sweetest,boy that's sailed this sea and tried out the tides first because gave me all of him, at one point, and the love was so real when he started to fade away was when other girls started coming his way and maybe even before that maybe when I started taking advantage of having power over his feelings and learning that I could get what I wanted if I threatened I'd leave. Just because I was selfish and wanted him solely to me, and when his attention went else where whether it be friends or other girls my confidence started to erode and cause me to lose hope. And only cause exactly what I never wanted to happen.
