it's been a long year
and I don't think
you understand that
I'm going crazy
no matter how calm I seem
or how tough a wall I put up
I'm man enough
to admit I ****** up
but I really am going crazy
I can't even explain
everything that's
been running through
my head

you see
at some point
subconsciously
I decided to take a chance
one I never wanted
or planned on
but I didn't have much choice
the walls were cracking
and now
weeks later
I'm stuck between
my pride and some
short term feelings
I never asked for

you sat there and
cried that night
remember?
I don't know if it was
because of me or
embarrassment
but *******
I really thought
that the walls were
down
finally
at last
but it seems
we both have
a little too much pride
for our own good

doesn't really matter
much anyway
I guess
it's been a long year
one we're both eager to
be done with
just could've sworn I
saw those walls come down
yours and mine both
if only for a moment

probably just me
going crazy
again