I curled up in a ball today
Just as the lights when out
In the house
And in my eyes
Not because I'm terrified of thunder
And how it shakes my house
And makes me feel inferior
To the world
But because I wanted you to hold me
And tell me
"It's all okay"
And
"Nothing bad is gonna happen"
I wanted you to hold me
And tell me you wouldn't let go
Until the thunder stopped
And I could breath again
Instead you told me
"I want a girlfriend who I'm happy with"
And
"whose your top five for me?"
I wanted to answer in simplistic words
I typed it over and over again
"Me"
"Me"
"Me"
I wrote
"IDK"
And IDK why I did
I guess I'm just not enough for you
You listed characteristics that you want
And I know I'm not all of them
But maybe if you let me try
I could prove to be more
Prove to be someone worthy of you.
If you read this
You'd laugh
"This must be a joke"
And
"I'm not good enough for you"
Yeah I guess you'd be right
I guess we're both right
I deserve someone who realizes
A broken heart
And you deserve someone who realizes
A lost cause