It is 1:32 in the morning.
It is 1:32 in the morning and I can’t sleep
I stare at nothingness as hot tears burn my face
Why?
Because I’m stupid
And I’m stupid because I’m scared.

It is 1:34 in the morning.
It is 1:34 in the morning and I swear I am haunted
Not by ghosts or demons
But by the past
Not just my own.

It is 1:36 in the morning.
It is 1:36 in the morning and I know now I will never be enough
She did things I am too scared to do
And I’m scared because I’m stupid.

It is 1:38 in the morning.
It is 1:38 in the morning and I’ve lost hope.