It can end so quickly,
so easily.
While we are all trapped in this miserable place,
teaching ourselves some valuable and grotesque lesson before we can move on to something better,
it is really very simple to escape.
But I'm curious.
I want to know what happens next.
But I don't.
I don't want to feel anymore of the terrible feelings associated with this life.
I want to feel joy,
not vast,
deep sorrow.
I want to be understood,
not misjudged.
I need to feel unconditional love,
affection,
not have to burden someone with wanting to.
I know that when I decided this life I was to learn a valuable lesson,
but I don't understand why I must feel so much pain.