my laughter hides it well
all the heartache and nights spent
crying and cutting for nothing
i don't know what's wrong with me
but i know there is a lot wrong
i see it in their eyes
how they could love me
if i was slender and didn't laugh
quite as loud
if my hair was naturally straight
and my makeup was tattooed on
if i could just get a single **** thing right

i don't want to be second best anymore
can someone hear me?
i've been pleading for years!
how can you leave me wallowing like this?
i hate you cause you know how i feel
yet you would never do a single thing
to help me
i don't know how to ask for help
because i have tried, believe me,
but nothing works