i’m sorry,
i’m sorry i created a dungeon of agony and i can’t lie and say it wasn’t my intention
i’m sorry, i pierced you and slit you open then turned around and blamed my depression
i’m sorry i tried so hard to make sure you didn’t survive while you tried so hard to keep me alive
in all my attempts to die, you fought so hard to defy my wishes and you kept breathing
body, i am sorry i tried to eliminate you and ****** you, but you just kept on healing
i owe you an apology for being at war with you all this time when i should have loved you because you’re mine
you begged me to be kind to you and treat you with care as i should and all i ever did was decline
i’m sorry, you deserve better, which is why i am writing you this letter, i shouldn’t have been your jailor
i now realise how precious you are and i vow to be your caretaker, your saviour
there were nights i screamed at you and told you to just let me die
there were nights i was so angry that i burned my throat yelling and watched you cry
thank you, because you never stopped fighting for me
i’m done trying to hurt you when you’ve loved me
i’m saying this honestly, and i hope you forgive me
i’m sorry dear body.