i'm in therapy now
and it's helping
but it's not.
i am so aware,
so aware that i feel anxious
so aware that my leg is moving at amillionmilesperhourandicantstop
so aware that i have just s
                                         c
                                           r
                                            a
                                              t
                                                c
                                                  h
                                                    e
                                                      d   my face
so aware that my face is red
and i also know what to do about it
but i'm too anxious
too aware
to do so
andmythoughtsaremovingsofast
sofasticantprocessthemallatonce
i­needtoslowdown
slowdown
slow down
s l o w
d
o
w
n
stop.