The light in your eyes is fading fast
Like a bladed glass,
I try to keep up a good front that
Nothing's wrong,
But inside my head and my heart
Are constantly fight who's right and
Who's wrong,
As soon as I feel I can grasp for air
And go ahead and let the pain's run
In, and accept that you are long gone
I can move along,
The taste of happiness has faded away
To another place and silence made home,
This feeling that I feel that is holding me
Captive within myself,
Feels as if someone pulls out the rug.
And I fall off my feet onto my face,
My heart does feel a beat.
And I have strong faith in you to see
Me through in Jehovah's name,
I don't want to give up, but this is too
Much pain that won't go away,
This is killing me slowly within why I
Am holding it all in,
But how much can one person take?
I try with all my might.
As darkness try's so hard to fall over
Me when death has taken its course,
This is not who I'm supposed to be.
I always try to remain bright in the love
Of Jehovah God ;
But this time my heart holds dimer
Light of lost life and I must get my
Feeling back right,
So I call on you Jehovah to let me run
Free until I have finely found me.
And now I am asking Jehovah God
To dust me off from all my sinful ways
And let me see brighter days to run
In the race.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery