There is no bliss in this distance that we experience. There is emptiness that resides  while no one hears my cries i slowly feel like im losing my mind. This is alright. Right? At least we have time for ourselves. But the thing is its not my time that i need this time. I dont need to remind myself how bad i am at being me. All I need is you. This is me being honest and all my words are true. Yes i am in love with you. And i miss you.

I am sorry for being overly dramatic. I know in this words it is not what you seek. I am an open book with no tricks. No kicks. No fakes. No lies. Just cries. With pain. Mundane feels. Beneath cold feets. It is 1 am. I shouldve been asleep. But words flow and i cant stop thinking about things i shouldnt think yet this thought flow like unending creeks. I cannot stop. I dont want to stop. I want this thoughts to overflow till my thoughtsbbecome thoughtless. Mind become mindless till I become heartless. Not thst i dont want to feel. I just feel like anytime i will explode in this vast universe. Spreading my emotions like the mushroom of how the nuke explodes.

All this. Allofthis. All of this just because i feel. There's beauty in pain but we should not dwell. I know it's addicting. I know it's enticing. It's a beautiful nightmare. But at the end. I just want to say. I love you. I am sorry. I miss you

This is not a poem nor beautiful. Just a thought that became thoughtless