I always seem to write something In hopes that I’ll be the first person to say it. I never am. Someone has always said it And said it much better than I did.
I started writing as a senior in high school. What a terrible time to start Because my ego got in the way Of all the words I wanted to say.
I should have picked up another habit Because smoking or gambling Would have been far less Self destructive Than writing has been.
The first poem I ever wrote Was about a heartbreak I thought I had. I wrote in hopes That they would see it. I don’t know if they ever did. But that’s when I learned how not To write a poem.
I’ve moved on since then. Now I write about things. Because it turns out they don’t change People do and that’s okay. But writing about who a person is now Will not stop them from becoming more than your words.
That doesn’t make sense to everyone. I’ve written poems About people who lived life A day behind everyone else. Because they believed it gave them time. But life catches up And believe that it is the most unforgiving ******* any human will meet.
I’m now a sophomore in college. I’ve recently decided to start a career in writing. People always give me that look When I tell them. Writing doesn’t assure you of anything. “Why write? You could teach and live life $30,000 a year.”
This is truth. It’s consistent, no worries. But it’s easy. Everything I write Comes from a part of myself That I have to struggle to find. This struggle kills me But I regenerate when the poem is finished. And I’ve found that I’d rather **** myself a thousand times over Than live to die once because it made life easy and hurt less.
I might never say something first. Someone will always come before me And I will always come before someone. This poem is done. And I am alive.