blind happiness
in satisfaction
with what?
what is that?
i never knew her

i saw her once in a dream
daydream
bloodstream
existing, not living

who was she
i saw her
im supposed to be her?
who is her

i wanted to be her
i was her
i wanted to be more
i fell
i wasn't her
i don't want to be her anymore
i don't want to be me anymore
i don't want me

skin gets thicker
heavier
how do i get out
i never could get out