the lights going down in a theatre when the movie is about to start the way a room full of people can hold its breath casual desk chats with my coworkers lying on my bed with my closest friends after a night out dancing brushing skin with beautiful people on my way to the bathroom handshakes from new people sitting in a crowded train where no one speaks a word crying in the bar when girls just wanna have fun comes on nights full of wine and movies and jokes with friends watching everyone run inside when it starts to rain being in a loud and warm restaurant after just the right combination of alcohol and food hearts packed together pretending we're all alone hugs from my family and friends playful cheek kisses the kindness of drunk girls in the bathroom something weird or funny happening on the train and everyone looking at each other trying not to laugh listening to new music as the city goes by my window seeing how happy people get when their food finally comes quips we say to no one in particular hugging in the street before getting into an uber sitting in a cafe for hours talking about the state of the world how everyone seems to be smiling on a sunny and nice day the look on anyone's face when they tell me it's going to be okay
this was originally meant to be a poem more just like a list but here we are