in the middle of the night it crept into my thoughts it grabbed my now depressed mind and tried to hold me close it listened to the fear and dreaded hate i had for this world and the people in it they took me hostage you see and i had no escape none of us can run from it some just hide from it better it took my face and told me what the world has said disgusting and worthless it stabbed my body with its piercing nails and told me how much of a fat slob i am it looked into my eyes and read my mind but their was nothing to read i was lost and alone but still the world around didnt seem hurt at all they laughed at my pain to make themselves feel better at the expence of a person they did not care they wanted to see me crash and burn so i could not fight i awoke from my slumber to walk to a mirror that had deep scars of my hatred for myself embedded in them and the scars, the scars matched the ones on my side the ones i hid from everyone so they would keep the words to them selves and i ran and i hid under the roof of the place i had to call home i ran there for safety but what safety did it being me when they yelled and yelled at me for mistakes that where never ment to happen i felt it was my fault when in some sort of crazy realty i was innocent i was the victim of being hated and let down and lied to i hurt so bad for people who would never feel the pain i hid in myself i tried to see what the world couldnt but how could i see what was not there i could not dream because they distroied them i could not hope because they stole it from me and i was not a well enough thief to steal it back they broke my heart this would that i had loved it didnt love me back it would never dare do such a thing so i sit and i cry and call myself a baby because i let this world **** me i let it take control of my body and mind because i felt i wasnt worth it even with the people who told me to see otherwise there was an army of hate that rushed their caring words right out of my mind and i tried, i tried to change my looks my thoughts who i was i hated myself and they hated me to so i took the knife to my wrist and i carved the words help me help me hoping someone could hear me but no one even bothered to listen so i wrote my story on paper covered in my blood the last thing i wrote was sorry carved into my neck