I’ve never been any good at Using my words, But I can build a house of bricks And never tear it down. My fingertips brush over the Fine teeth of paper I’ve tried Countless times to smooth over With ink for you.
My heartbeat still knocks After your footprints have long since Faded and my Lips still shiver With the taste of yours. But I never know Whether it’s Love or Lightning That we make in between the sheets; It still sends me into Shock All the same.
My subconscious mind is Buried like pebbles at High tide, I am swept into your current With a choice to Sink or swim, And I always Paddle backwards- Away from the blood That’s pumping, And breath that’s Humming, Drumming like my toes on Cold sheets as I sit Shaking and Coated in a damp skin That longs for something new.
The familiar lull of confusion in a Quiet mind that’s Rolling Like the dice I cast Each time I open my mouth to speak- The chances of me saying 3 words I Continue to choke down Are dwindling. The lack of language is substituted By my mouth with kisses as My nails scratch at my throat Trying to force the words out. Instead I find myself singing songs that I’ve somehow connected with you. Is this what love is supposed to Feel like?
I’ve never been too good at Using my words, But I built a house of bricks for you And I will never tear it down. So feed my feelings, the ones you’ve Sewn to the palms of your hands and Coax the words hidden under my tongue To your anticipating eardrums, Or wherever they are meant to Fall.