what a thing to imagine! how rare an event in the history of my life, of the world, of the universe, of everything, that in receiving the joy of another human being i too felt joy - how silly a notion, that such could occur, and to me, no less! of all the things so imagine!
except, and i'm sure you'll find this surprising, it was not actually a thing of my imagination and no matter how trivial you may think it, i was glad, because such a smile was true and directed at me, and in existence at all, actually really there, and honestly i was worried it wouldn't have been, but no -