I just want to scream
Scream at her
Scream at her family
Collapse on the sea floor of my own tears
Drown in front of them
Die with one last scream in my lungs
Save that scream for God
Scream at God for letting this happen to me
WHY GOD?! WHY ME? WHY US? WHY HER?
And He will calmly tell me everything happens to make us stronger in the Lord
And I will Scream
All the way down to Hell
Not to Heaven. Thats where she is. I want to avoid her for the rest of eternity
But really I just need to scream