My old friend, My one that got away. My number one fan. My one thing certain. Why? Why did you do it? Steal this from me, I want to scream to whereever you are. All of the things I should have. Ive never felt so guilty, If I had more time, I wanted time with you. I wanted a hug, to hear your voice. It's gone now. We had this amazing bond. You loved me unconditionally I know. Why, why didn't I show you it back enough. I am so scared to never have you in my life again. I am awake hoping you know. I haven't slept in days. Every song reminds me of you And I break down. You didnt have to do it you know. I wish you would have showed up at my door. I beg to let this be a nightmare. Please, please have your face shaking me awake. Please let me see your grin and hear your voice. Please fill this emptiness I have had since they told me. Please. You couldn't have ended your life. You couldn't have stolen your amazing self from the world. I knew you as one of my first loves, I knew you as a best friend. I knew you as a passionate secret. I loved it all.