I want to be good at something
Not okay, not mediocre, but good

like actually
professional

In a creative hobby. In a creative space.

But when I start something
So many others are so much more further then me.

I start to create
then I see their creations.

Beautiful and Wonderful  

Then i look at my own and think

"This is trash"

Scrap it, erase it, and never look back.