Slowly gaining speed,
Falling so ever fast,
Rapidly losing everything i need,
The hole in my heart ever so vast
Wishing for one day to find the one i can call mine,
Forever wearing my heart on my sleeve,
Wondering why i cant turn these tears into wine, 
the one thing i hate is when they give up and leave.
To find the right one is my dream,
To meet someone who wont treat me like trash,
Someone who will make me so happy i could scream 
And someone who wont focus on my past.
 A gal that will be loyal and honest, 
With whom i can easily have a blast,
Me you constantly Astonish,
With how you dont care about my past
I no longer feel oddish,
I hope this will last.
Suddenly you got scared,
Because it became too real.
After my feelings that i bared,
Your heart i couldnt steal,
Tho my heart you definitely snared.
Our bond did unseal.
Hurting you I would have never dared
The pain i feel is all too unreal
Its all like a drama show thats aired
All the way down to how i feel.
Now as i move on to better things,
I pull back on this fishing reel
And i cut the puppet strings.
No longer do i let someone use my emotions against me.
No matter how much it stings.
I will never understand how this generation came to be,
So cold and too scared to express things. 
What happened to all the bravery?
All the compassion that being human brings? 
What happened to helping others?
Like those in times of need?
Like mother whose child she smothers,
So many of us and of our hearts that do bleed,
I am just one of many,
But i am also none,
Even when its rainy,
I still see what i have done.
Some good some bad,
Some ups and some downs,
Moments happy and memories sad,
Disappearing are these clowns, 
And replaced are demons of ironclad.
Forever haunting my memory, 
That one fateful day, 
The accident was awfully scary,
And how i lost him and you wasnt a fair way,
To make me a stronger person.
They try to make me obey,
But i am my very own version,
Of who i want to be eventually,
To keep living i have my own secret reason
And to change is up to no one but me.
After living a life so ******,
Its time to explore this city.
To attack my heart with such feelings, is awfully unfair.
To have to live with these unpleasant dealings, 
Makes me choke as if there is poisons in the air. 
I think im drowning, 
Slowly but surely,
Into the depths i am sinking,
My hair is getting curly,
As this constricting water soaks it.
Trying desperately to reach the surface,
I swim and my energy of im using every bit,
To once again see your beautiful face.
After i take every hit, 
**** making it foggy,
Making it like staring through a slit,
Wondering if theres still hope for me
Wandering through this wasteland 
Of broken dreams and promises,
Waiting for you to finally take my hand,
Please just make me feel like Ulysses.
Make me your hero, 
Knight in shining armor
Dont make me feel like a zero,
If you need me just holler.
Im always here for you
I truly do care after all I'm your most frequent caller
So please dont feel so blue
Just think of me
When you feel alone
Dig deep into your memory
Dont give up please come home
After years of constant strife 
I have overcome a lot and therse so much ive done.
Im still trying to figure out my life
But rn it feels like a loaded gun
Broken i am okay i am not.
I can no longer run.
I feel like ive been shot. 
Escalating the situation.
Feeling myself beginning to rot,
Coming across a revelation,
But not able to freely trot.
Accessing a new transaction 
Getting hit with even more fees.
The pain wont stop
It feels like being stung by bees
Forever on one leg i now hop.