I always think why try why worry you will never be good enough for someone you will always hate life hate your self you might as well just stay hidden from everyone and everything around you because you know that you will never be good enough for anyone and anything you might as well hide and never come out because of your thoughts and self esteem and all you want to do is come out but you can't because you locked your self behind a close door so that no one can come In and when people try to come in and comforter you you just push them away because your worried that if you get to close to them you might lose them and that's what you fear the most.