Yes I want to fix you

and hold you

and tell you that when your curled into a tight knot on a bed

that I am there for you

I want to fix you

but when I stand so close I just forget that you are nothing more than a muse I watched a thousand times

Who told me things would get better, when I tried to swallow flames at night

I want to take your hugs and store them into jars along the kitchen sink

because I will always need them

And I am scared

I am scared

and **** it, I have a reason to believe in something more

When I grab your hand, I don’t feel venom

and I’m scared

Because I feel as if your body should radiate

needles

create roses

but I am scared

To believe that I cant fix you.

just love you.