i think i could love him one day,
if i let myself.
i won’t though.
i will keep him at an arms distance
close enough to feel his presence but not close enough to touch.
i think he would love me in the way i always dreamed.
i won’t let it get that far.
i’m selfish.
i see his face and i want to get wrapped up in this feeling
but when i think of us
and really think about it
i cringe.
i feel bad to do this because in a different life maybe we could have been great,
but this is this life and it’s just not meant to be.